I have had troubles and sorrow. I lost my mother, sister, sign language teacher, two of my best friends and several others in the last few years. I also have struggled through the challenges of menopause. So, these last two years have caused my personality to be subdued. I am thankful that I am recovering from this season of sorrow and menopause.
God speaks to me in my feelings, although I have to be aware of the danger of allowing my emotions to control my life. I have to be careful to not respond to every sorrow, both my own pain and the pain of others, as a confirmed vision from God. Many times I run to help others.
I am also an “idea” person, so I can easily run and follow many creative butterflies. I must use the steadiness in my personality to keep on track. I relate to the dog in the cartoon movie, “UP.” The dog in that movie is always easily distracted by squirrels. I must learn to become even more self-controlled and wait on the Lord. My desire to do many works of service can cause me to be exhausted and have my attentions divided. I believe God surely uses a sensitive heart, but every strength can also be a weakness.
My goal – even though I have seen both trouble and many great blessings – is to focus on loving and knowing Jesus NO MATTER WHAT. He will help me with my pain. He will help me have wisdom to know how to serve Him. He will bless me.
Psalms 86:11 says, “Lord, teach me what you want me to do, and I will live by your truth. Teach me to respect you completely.”
I want Jesus to capture my heart and help me keep my eyes on Him.
In Exodus 33, Moses did not want to go anywhere without God! We too need God every minute of our lives! We need to keep our hearts praying, “Lord God, please go with me through the joys and pains of life!” He (God) promises to be with us.
Exodus 33:14-15 says, “The Lord answered, ‘I myself will go with you, and I will give you victory.’ Then Moses said to him, ‘If you yourself don’t go with us, then don’t send us away from this place.'”
Keep your heart focused upon (paying attention to) Jesus!